I think I’m going crazy.
I’d rather hear something really bad right now rather than sit around all week in agony without a single clue.
I’m going crazy. And I hate it. I hate it all.
This prolonged sadness is starting to become sadness AND anger.
What else will it turn into? Do I have to wait to see that too? Do I have to wait even more? I want to be a good person and continue believing “you can have all the time you need” but what that really means is “I’ll give you all the time you need because I love you, but I hate this more than you can imagine and I’m going ****ing crazy and I’m losing my sanity and I don’t want to deal with this anymore so will you ****ing hurry it up or else when you finally do talk to me I’m not going to be the same person.”
Can someone turn off the “tears” button and the “emotions” button while they’re at it? I don’t want it, I don’t want it.
I. Am. Losing. It.