I added some new poems to 2005 at my writings site (https://fadedout.com/within). “Overflowing Drain” is completely dedicated to Jazmin. And some others, perhaps. I like making poems and graphics that go with them. They kind of let me “express” myself and all that pizzazz. That’ll be it for 2005 because 2006 is here! I had a lot ot poems in 2004. Probably because it was VERY eventful. I also think it has some poems that were from before 2004. I hope to write more this year. It really gives me something to think about and look back at.

Anyway, out with the old and in with the new right? I really am over it because I feel no sadness. Maybe it’s just for the moment, but right now I’m feeling pretty good. Isn’t that weird? It’s like the new year finally just smacked me in the face! I kind of started off fresh this new year. Got my domain up, spent some time with my brother, I have someone that cares about me, and cleaned out my binders. Speaking of cleaning out my binder…guess how long it took? It took at least an hour and a half! I was cleaning my binder and transferring papers (in chronological order) to my AP binder. I was doing it while my brother was watching a movie. Tedious work, lol. I guess if I look at things positively I won’t feel so bad. Who am I kidding? I’ve tried to look at it positively before. It just sucked too much for me to concentrate on the positives. I guess today is just a good day. But I do hope it’s that “new year magic” doing its wonders.

I seriously need to do my school work. UGH. I was supposed to do it today, but time just flew on by. At least I got to cleaning my binder. Queen of procrastination…right here. At least I know I’m not alone. I NEED to make myself do it tomorrow. I will so regret it on Monday if I don’t.

Movie: So how did I spend my New Year’s Eve? I watched The Exorcism of Emily Rose with my brother. Haha, that’s a great way of starting your year isn’t it? Watching scary movies. My parents were out at a party and got back not too long ago. So anyway, I liked the movie. I thought it was scary; scary as in jumpy moments (I’m a jumpy chicken). The girl that played as Emily Rose must have been a really good actor because she did a lot of screaming, convulsions, crying, etc of a possessed person. Spoiler: I thought it was very interesting how “Emily Rose’s story” is how she chose to stay in her possessed body to show people that demons do exist instead of going with the Virgin Mary. The movie questions demons, god, and what you believe in. Personally, I don’t really know. It’d be really nice if there was a god that watched over us. However nice it would be, I’m not sure what is real. What proof is there that god exists? But what proof is there that “magic” can’t be real?