Every time I neglect my blog for weeks at a time, it is usually a sign that I am NOT at my best, ha… It means I need to get my crap together and be better! Sigh. I miss blogging here, visiting & commenting on other blogs (sorry T_T), and just feeling all around more productive.

I was planning to take my OAT exam in late September, but what do you know, it’s already almost September. I feel like I’ve been screwing around. I don’t know. Ideally you’re supposed to treat it as a job, studying at least 8 hours a day. I did that, sometimes I spent the entire day doing that. But I think I burnt out, and the studying got so much slower, and now I’m at a spot where I’m really, really concerned on whether or not I can pull it together. Time is ticking and every time I seriously think about what I have to do (after the exam is even more stuff I need to take care of: volunteering, finding a job, internship, soul searching, letter of recs), my brain goes into overdrive and I push it away. Man, I don’t know. I need to get it together. I’m just not sure how to be the best I can be from here on out without falling back into a burnt out slump. I feel so guilty for it.

I don’t know. Maybe I should just keep blogging rather than hiding away. Maybe that would give me a better reality check, and motivate me for something better.