I usually tend to be absent from blogging mostly because of a few things: 1) lazy 2) overwhelmed with studies 3) having too much fun 4) feeling kind of lost as a person.

In the time that I haven’t blogged, I think I pretty much had ALL 4, but tonight and as of late, I am feeling #4 especially. I mean, I know who I am, who I want to be in the future, and how to get there. I guess right now I just feel like I slipped away into the cracks…and I’m not working hard enough to change that. In the end it’s not that big of a deal in the grand scheme of things, but I guess you can’t compare one thing with another because we all have different circumstances no one will ever have exactly the same life that you live.

Basically…I just need some self-motivation – which I do have, for sure. I just have to polish it up and make it shine. And maybe have a little bit of butt-kicking. Anyway, I barely finished washing a sink full of dishes and whatnot. I’ll either keep myself awake doing extra late night (or is this just “early” now?) studying, or I’ll end up going to bed so I can see a new day…with sunlight.