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One of my biggest fears is being stuck inside of an elevator. I am not claustrophobic and I ride elevators on an almost-daily basis when I’m at school, but I have always had a fear of being stuck in one. Every time I step into an elevator alone, I have this unconscious thought: I hope this elevator doesn’t get stuck or have any accidents. Each time my fears are proven wrong because the elevator runs smoothly and I feel a little silly. BUT NOT THIS TIME.

On Friday I was at the library as usual, studying during my gap before class. Since I was on the fourth floor, I got into the elevator to go down. I had the typical thoughts in the back of my head, but I wasn’t expecting much. Press button. Doors close. Go down. Should be simple. But nooooo. The metal doors slowly came together and closed. I thought the elevator sounded a little off today, but I thought it was just me being paranoid like usual. The button for the bottom floor was pressed and it was lit up, so the only thing left to do was wait.

And wait.

And wait.

I kept waiting, and it didn’t seem like the elevator was going anywhere!!! No movement, no elevator noises, and the digital sign at the top of the elevator displayed that I was still on the same floor. This was exactly what I had been fearing all my life, so you can imagine how freaked out I was getting. Additional mashing of buttons didn’t help, naturally.

You should have seen my face. It was totally panicked and my eyes were crazily dashing left to right, alternating from looking at the digital display to looking at the lit up buttons to see if anything changed at all. It was my longest 40 seconds (or however long it was) in an elevator, ever. My phobia was getting to me and my heartrate was shooting up, so I finally pressed the “CALL” button, which is supposed to phone someone. Right below the button it said, “Button will flash when call is answered.” But of course, nothing ever flashed and no one ever answered. So I was really freaking out by then, but the door finally released its grip of death and slid open. Phewwww.

It also revealed that I was ON THE SAME FLOOR. The guy sitting at a computer nearby must have thought I was weird because I had just gone into the elevator and come back out on the same floor looking disgruntled. What the heck?!?!? I had a quiz in less than ten minutes and I still needed to go to the bottom floor to get the heck out of this library. I was like, “Hell no, I’m not using the same elevator again.” I went to the other side and used a different elevator, which had someone else riding the elevator with me, so I felt a little safer. Everything from then on went smoothly and soon enough I was greeted cheerfully with bright, bright sunlight blinding my eyes outside. FREEDOM. haha. And this is exactly why I have an irrational fear of elevators in the back of my mind! I wonder if anyone finally picked up my call inside of the elevator. I hope they did, because if they didn’t that means no one will ever answer a call in the event of a real emergency. -.-

By the way, it doesn’t help at all that I read this article in the past: Up and Then Down. Sure, it’s a seriously more extreme case of being stuck in an elevator (41 hours stuck on the 13th floor), but after reading that (while already having a bit of an elevator phobia) one cannot help but feel a little extra paranoid in an elevator. *shivers* I wouldn’t want to work in a 50+ floor building…

The last time I updated was in the middle-ish of July, so I’m always a bit sad whenever I am not able to post at least one blog entry a week. But here I am, and hopefully I can fill in the gaps!

Sometime between then and now, my boyfriend and I went to the county fair! I had gone a few times in my lifetime before, but I never went with him before. As expected, it was a really special day for the both of us. You know those typical movies where a couple goes on a date at the carnival? Well, It felt something like that (without the drama) and it was really sweet. I actually took two final exams earlier in the day, and as a wonderful reward, my boyfriend took me to the fair right after I was done. It was on a Wednesday, where there was a children’s book drive taking place. If you donate one new book, you get a free ticket! So I brought in two books and we got in for free.

We visited the little farm and animal barns. I love animals, so that never fails to keep me entertained. We saw lots of goats, a huge mama pig with piglets, sheep, bunnies, llamas, and all types of birds (one of my favorite animals!). I think my favorite bird that we saw was the quail. They are SO cute! They’re like these round little fluffballs running around on the floor. *blush* The peacock was very impressive too, and his female mate was sitting on some eggs!

Afterwards we pretty much just walked around checking out the fairgrounds. Once we started getting hungry we got ourselves a blooming onion. It was really good! But for just two people we got tired of it 2/3 of the way, and I ended up just eating the fried batter part on the outside of the onion slices. We were also going to try some sort of crazy fair food, like deep fried snickers or something really bizarre, but after eating that greasy blooming onion, I don’t think we felt like going through with our plan anymore. :p

After walking around some more, we checked out the game booths! We had already gone around the entire place seeing which stuffed animal prizes were the cutest. My boyfriend had this cute goal of winning me something. He was really dead set upon winning me something nice. *love* He played at a few booths, but the one that was most memorable was this one game where you can purchase a bucket of rings and in order to win you have to toss the ring so that it goes through the top of a glass soda bottle. There were a bunch of soda bottles lined up. It was really hard because the rings are pretty small and from a distance it’s more like a game of luck rather than skill with the rings bouncing all over the place. He spent so much money on that game because the GIGANTIC penguin (I think it was even taller than me!) was sooooo cute and he really wanted to win it for me! After a few buckets (and I helped him a bit) of rings, we gave up (and even then I had to convince him to not spend all his money! T_T ).

But he DID end up winning me two stuffed animals which you saw in a photo at the top of this post! The penguin was sooo lucky! After we finally gave up on the ring toss game I mentioned above, I told him to just play something for fun and not think about the prize. He decided to play this shooting game where you shoot a watergun at a small hole, and whoever gets the most water in within a minute or something wins! Well, he won! It was against a bunch of people too, so he got to pick one of the nicer stuffed animals as the winner, which was the penguin I wanted. Sooo cute!

The gorilla was won with a little “help” from a friend who was working at the fair. It was a game of pool and you had to shoot at least 1 ball into the hole each time but our friend just pushed the balls in every time he missed. :D haha, such a dirty way to win, but my friend said it was okay, since they make a lot of money ripping people off (people who waste hundreds of dollars on these games and win a stuffed animal worth a few dollars).

We checked out the art gallery they had, too. It had displays of winning things that people made. Like woodwork, quilts, paintings, food art, etc. Some of the things were really nice.

When we got hungry for “real” food, we shared a chicken kabob which was really tender and good. And for our last bit of fair food, we got a funnel cake with fresh strawberries. It was THE most delicious funnel cake I had ever eaten in my life! It was very crispy and soft in the middle, and it was actually possible to cut it with a knife! In the past all the funnel cakes I ate were too hard to be cut apart. We pretty much devoured it. Yum.

We also got one free carnival ride with our tickets, so we went on the ferris wheel. It was my boyfriend’s first time riding one, and he is deathly scared of heights and rides, so he was breaking out in a cold sweat and shaking while we were on it, lol. I tried my best to calm him and hold him, but he didn’t calm down until the end of our ride, haha. Oh well, but he still thought it was romantic and kind of got over his fear of the ferris wheel, so goal accomplished! That was our last event of the day, so afterwards we went home all tired and satisfied. *_*

These tips are not limited to just dorming college freshmen, but a few tips might be more relevant to dorming students than commuters. I dormed my freshman year, and I don’t regret it. I recommend it to anyone who considers dorming. Here are some (aka tons) of tips I have written. Some things are obvious, but are good reminders, and some are things I wish someone told me before I started my dorm life.


  • Never ever study in your dorm. Don’t be like me; for almost a whole quarter I believed I would be able to study in my room. That’s a joke…you’ll never get anything done unless you have good discipline and you can study with noise. There are, of course, exceptions with oddly quiet dorms or dorms during the last half of the year where people shape up and realize they actually have to study or else they’re going to fail out of college. :p
  • Therefore, go somewhere quiet to study. It’s probably good to change it up to keep yourself from getting tired and bored. Study room, library, etc. Explore new places.
  • Meet up with a study group only if you’re caught up in your individual studying. Being in a study group is less efficient if you don’t know your stuff already. Think of it as more of a reinforcement. This means you’ll have to make sure you’re caught up if you ever want to have a study group. Study groups usually mean a good excuse to get together and procrastinate if no one actually knows any of the material yet.
  • Make sure you complete any extra worksheets given and then go to office hours for any help or clarification. It will probably help a lot for your exams.
  • Don’t delude yourself by just saying “I need to study more” because will you really? If you find yourself having trouble with getting things done or managing time, take some time out of your day to plan out a schedule for at least an entire week. Plan every hour. Then make sure you follow it. Try not to stray too much or else you’ll be back to your old ways very soon.
  • If the study areas tend to fill up before and during finals week, that will be a problem. At my college for example, sometimes our study area fills up really quickly. So make sure you use the rest of your day as efficiently as possible because you might not be able to find a quiet place to study at night. If you find that you’ve got nowhere quiet to go, try to go to bed instead. Then you can wake up early in the morning. Or, if you definitely need to find a place to study at night, go explore and find new areas that have less people.
  • The truth is, most people don’t go to office hours (especially online schools students). I didn’t. I think the best way to motivate yourself into going is to take one day where you visit all of your office hour locations. Now that you know where they are, you have a better chance of going to them. In some cases, I would plan to go to office hours, but I didn’t even know where they were, so I got lazy and didn’t bother going.
  • Find a way of writing down your due dates and assignments. I personally used a small dry-erase board on my wall. Others use sticky notes on their bookshelves. Recently I tried using this website to keep myself organized: CollegeRuled. Some people use agendas. Some people put them into their laptops or cell phones. If you’re lucky, you’ll have an email reminder or a reminder from a classmate. Otherwise, you’re pretty much responsible for remembering and if you don’t, it really sucks when you find out later that you got zero points because you forgot.
  • Go to free tutoring and get a paid tutor if you need to. If anything, at least go to free review sessions. They are usually very helpful for the exam.
  • When you’re reviewing all of your material for an exam, it helps to write down important things or things you’re unclear about on a huge white board. Writing it down helps, and then having all of the information in front of you on the white board is a great review when you read over it again.
  • When you’re feeling really sleepy and unproductive at the library, take a 15 minute nap. If you feel weird napping where people might see you, get a cubicle. It’s less noticeable and no one can see you anyway. The nap usually helps and you’ll be able to focus much better afterward. If you’re with a friend, have them wake you up, or set an alarm on your phone just in case.


  • Use Rate My Professors to look at any possible reviews of professors. In college, unless you know an upperclassman, it is difficult to know which professor and which classes to take. Rate My Professors can help in deciding, depending on who is more difficult, etc. Remember, take each review with a grain of salt because professor can change their ways and students might write bogus reviews to throw you off.
  • Choose a time slot that will work for you. Don’t choose an 8 AM class if you were never able to wake up past 1 PM. Weigh out your options. Is the really awesome teacher worth taking at 8 in the morning if you never wake up to go to class?
  • Figure out whether gaps in classes will work with you or against you. Some people use them efficiently to study and then have the rest of the day to themselves. Others only waste this time and a back-to-back schedule would be better for them.
  • Start off your first quarter with an easy load. You don’t want to feel overwhelmed the minute you start college and you will want to have time to get settled into college life.
  • PAY YOUR FEES ON TIME. This is extremely important. No one (well, for most colleges) is going to call you up and baby you to pay for your fees. If you don’t pay on time you can risk having to pay for extra fees, getting your classes dropped, and even expulsion.

Meal Plans

  • Make use of your meal plan and “steal” (technically you probably paid thousands for that meal plan) some food from the dining commons! If you’re a girl, it’s much easier: bring your purse and a couple of ziploc or plastic baggies. Or if anything, bring back some fruit and EAT IT (a lot of the time they end up being thrown away).
  • The first week or so of dorm food is usually awesome. But after a while it might get tiring. To keep yourself from growing utterly sick of dining commons, try to stick to only one entree per meal. Since everything is buffet-style, you’ll want to get a little bit of everything, but you’ll get tired of everything really fast if you do that since most dining commons end up reusing their dishes for other days. Just get one entree per meal and change it up each time.
  • Sometimes you get sick of dorm food and it’s nice to eat out. It’s also a great way to spend time with your friends. But don’t forget you also paid for a meal plan, if you have one. Plan out how much you have to eat at the dining hall so that you won’t be left with 30 unused meals at the end of the year.

Your Dorm Room

  • Clean up after yourself frequently. Tidy things up. Most dorm spaces are small, and it can get messy really fast. Just keep up with keeping things clean and it won’t be a chore at all. A lot of people let their rooms go until there is a huge mass of doom, slowly swallowing up the entire room.
  • When you receive your room assignment, contact your roommate(s) and figure out who is bringing what, general sleeping habits, etc. You don’t want to all move in and find out there are three televisions and no fridge.
  • Try to set up some rules beforehand. Don’t always leave things up to “common courtesy” because when you live with someone, things don’t always work out the way you expect. When can guests be brought over? Is there any borrowing allowed? Study with or without noise? etc.
  • Sometimes beds can be raised to have more space underneath. Especially handy to put drawers, mini-fridges, and the like.
  • A microfridge is very handy. You can store food/drinks and heat up anything any time you’re hungry. There is usually a common kitchen for the entire building to use, but it’s a hassle sometimes to have to go there just to get a glass of milk. Shared fridge might also be a problem because your stuff might be used without permission or could be messed with.
  • If the bed turns out to be really hard and uncomfortable, buy a memory foam pad or something similar to put on top of the mattress. It will make a huge difference.
  • Closet space is usually very minimal. Make use of hanging more than one clothing item on one hanger. Put in some organizers or extra shelves/drawers.
  • Always have plastic utensils, cups, and plates.
  • Have a good desk lamp if one is not provided. You’re going to be using it a lot for studying or when your roommate decides to sleep earlier than you. If you like to study on your bed, it might be a good idea to get a clamp-on lamp and stick it on the headboard.
  • Shower caddys are usually a must-have, whether you store it in the bathroom or your room. It will make it a lot easier to transport and it keeps all of your toiletries together.
  • If your bathroom doesn’t have a changing area, it might be helpful to change in your room or in a bathroom stall before and after your showers. Some like to use robes and others are fine with a towel.
  • Use shower shoes. They can be simple flip flops. You have no idea what goes on in showers and walking barefoot in the bathroom is kind of gross.
  • Beds are usually “extra-long twin” beds. They do that in case anyone is super tall. It’s a pain, though, because you’ll have to buy bed sheets specifically for your dorm unless your bed at home is extra-long. If you don’t want to spend too much money, use some temporary sheets for a little bit, and wait till after school starts. That is when all of the popular dorm items will go on sale.
  • Putting up photographs, decorating and personalizing your room will make it feel much more like home. Also, they will make great conversation starters when you invite people over to your room.
  • If you have a choice in choosing your bed and moving the furniture around, I would suggest having your bed in such a way so that your head will not be the first thing seen when the door is open. You might be sleeping and your head will be the first thing that people will see when your roommate opens the door, or light might shine directly into your face.


  • Keep your laptop fully charged as often as possible. You never know when you might want to go to the library and find that there are no outlets open, or you might just feel like hanging out in someone else’s dorm room with no open outlets.
  • If possible, get TWO chargers for your laptop. One to leave at home and one for your dorm. If you ever visit home frequently or at all, it will be very handy. I’ve had too many friends who ended up in trouble because they forgot to bring their charger. If you’re lucky you’ll have a friend who will let you borrow theirs for a bit. Or, you can just make sure one of the top items on your list is a laptop charger when you are about to leave for home or for the dorms. Same goes with cell phone chargers.
  • Invest in some good earphones. You’re gonna need them when you don’t feel like listening to your roommate complaining about how bad of a hair day they’re having.
  • You might want to have an external harddrive to back up all of your files on. It is not pretty when someone loses all of their notes and files during finals week.
  • Keep a USB stick handy all the time for when you need to save school work or even just transfer files with a friend. You never know when you need to save something. Additionally, make use of your email and make it a habit to send copies of your documents to your email. It might save your rear end in the event that you’re away from your computer and need to access or print one of your assignments.
  • Invest in a camera or camera phone to capture all your memories.


  • Check your email and keep your eyes open for any free campus events. Gotta take advantage of FREE events, the possibility of getting FREE stuff, and having a great time with your friends!
  • Do some research on good places to eat around campus. When you’re tired of the cafeteria food, you’ll want a change. Take note of places open late too – midnight runs are really fun with some friends.
  • Explore your campus. You might find some nice places to study, great photo opportunities, places you never knew existed, a peaceful place to relax, etc…who knows what you’ll find.
  • Check out the locations of your classes beforehand, so you’re not as nervous in being able to find your class. Being early will also keep you feeling relaxed, and you can use that time to chat with some new people.

Making Friends

  • The first few weeks of college will be prime time. You need to make your best efforts to put yourself out there and meet new people. Everybody is new and the friendly factor is extremely high. It is best to make friends before people start getting comfortable and form groups, since those are harder to break into.
  • Don’t be afraid. Everyone is just as nervous as you are. If you are open and friendly, you will have no problem making new friends.
  • During the first few days, grab a friend or roommate and go around the entire building, greeting each room. It’s a great way to see who you’ll be living with and you’ll be off on a good start in making new friends.
  • Join a club! Check out a couple and see if you like any. It’s best to find one you like and focus on that. Don’t worry if you can’t find a club you’re interested in. Despite trying a few clubs my freshman year, it took me almost two years to finally find one I really liked.
  • Leave the door to your room open if you want people to pop in. People are usually attracted to open doors when they’re bored and it’s really easy to meet people that way.
  • If you are thinking about dorming with a friend, rethink that. Sometimes it’s best to separate friends and roommates because being friends with someone is entirely different from living with someone. You don’t want to end up hating your bestfriend because you found out he/she is a terrible roommate. Also, if you room with a stranger, that’s automatically a new friend and someone new to meet. The next best solution would be to request to live in the same building as your friend. That way you will still have the comfort of each other if you ever need it.
  • Dating people in the same building. In my opinion? DON’T DO IT. It spells trouble. It gets super awkward if it doesn’t work out, and you’re going to hate seeing your ex every time you go to the bathroom or hang out with your friends in the common room. It works out for some people, but use your judgment and be aware of the consequences.
  • Be friends with your Resident Advisor (RA). He or she will be really knowledgeable and sociable. Remember, they are usually not that much older than you, only by a couple of years.

Last but not least, you may want to check out my List of Things to Bring to College.

College seems like a whole new place, and that’s because … it usually is! That’s not a bad thing at all. You just need to transition into a new life and it will be an awesome experience. As you can see, this list is seriously comprehensive. See how much I care about incoming freshies? ^_^ Now that you have these tips in mind, your transition to college life might be a little easier.

I know some people have become really wary about FaceBook’s privacy issues. Personally, I believe if you are NOT posting drunken pictures of yourself and NOT giving out your address to everyone, you don’t have too much to worry about. This tutorial focuses more on privacy control with the people you add as “friends” on FaceBook.

Sometimes people blindly add anyone as their “friend” even if they don’t know the person too well or even at all. You may want to be careful about this because as your “friend” they will be able to see almost everything on your FaceBook, including pictures, status updates, wall posts to friends, and other personal information. It’s been a trend recently for students to add their past teachers and some family members. These are also people you may want to be careful about. Although you could easily solve this problem by just being careful and censored on the Internet in general, there is another option.

We can turn to the “Limited Profile” feature of FaceBook. This basically lets you control who sees what from you. You can put certain people on the Limited Profile list and prevent them from seeing specific things from you, or you can also limit what one particular person sees. FaceBook has changed their layout more than enough times and even though I’ve been using it for a few years, I still had trouble finding the option again, so I decided to write a little tutorial on this. Hopefully this tutorial will stay relevant for more than two weeks.

Step 1: First, let’s set up the Limited Profile list, shall we? In the upper-right hand corner click Account and then select Edit Friends.

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Step 2: You will see a sidebar on the left. Select Friends under Lists.

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Step 3: At the top of the page next to the search bar, you’ll see a couple of buttons. Using these, you can create a new list, edit a list, or delete a list. If you don’t have one already, create a “Limited Profile” list.

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Step 4: Now you can edit the list and add any friends to the list.

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Step 5: So now we have the Limited Profile list established. Next we want to control what people on this list will see from you. In the upper-right hand corner of your FaceBook page, click Account and then click Privacy Settings.

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Step 6: Click on Customize settings.

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Step 7: Now you will see a whole list of things, such as “Things I share,” “Things others share,” and “Contact information.” Next to each feature you will have the option to customize what people will see. You have the option of the typical “Everyone,” “Friends and Networks,” “Friends of Friends,” and “Friends Only,” but you can also pick “Custom” which is where you can have more control. So click “Custom” and a small window will pop up.

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Step 8: At the bottom of the window you can choose to hide the feature from anyone you want. It can be a specific person or the “Limited Profile” list, which will include all of the people you added to this list earlier.

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Step 9: And finally, how do we put people on the “Limited Profile” list when you first add them as your friend? When you add a friend or accept a friend request, you can put the person on the Limited Profile list immediately. It is very simple and you do not need to go through the earlier steps again. All you have to do is click “Add to List” and then pick “Limited Profile.”

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There you go! Now you will have more control over what people see on your profile and what information you send out.

Also, when you are at the “Customize settings” page, you will notice a “Preview My Profile” button at the top right corner. You can click this and type in the name of one of your friends to see exactly how they will see your profile.

Remember, even with the Limited Profile trick, it’s probably best not to post anything up that would ruin your life if the wrong person saw it.

Can’t sleep. Thoughts in form of a letter.

Dear J, or as I used to lovingly call you, Benny,
Would you believe that your first girlfriend apparently still cries over you, even though it’s been five years since the first time you both met?

I know. It’s hard for me to believe, too.

I don’t remember when was the last time I cried over you. It’s been a long time now.

I don’t even know what triggered my thoughts about you. I was about to fall asleep, until I thought about you for some reason. And then cried. And then I tried to trace every single memory of us, to squeeze out every last tear. I don’t know why I do it. Is it because I want to forget? Is it because I don’t want to forget?

You may be doing terrific right now, or terrible, I wouldn’t know (and honestly I don’t really care), but I think you’re pretty lucky about one thing at least: you have someone who cared about you enough to be thinking/crying about you despite the long gap in time of separation and no contact. Ever think about that? Probably not.

My favorite memories: Swimming day in P.E. when I’d sit at the edge of the pool and you’d swim over asking me why I didn’t go in, and I replied, “It’s cold.” Days in P.E. when I’d be walking to the locker room and you’d yell my name to say hi but I wouldn’t hear you, so you’d yell louder until I heard you and when I did, I’d smile. Cold mornings when you’d keep me warm and attempt to tickle me. Walking from the bungalows (Mrs. Turner’s class?) and you shyly asked, “Will you go out with me?” One day after school when you insisted that your mom give me a ride home and when I finally met her I thought she was really nice (I wonder if she ever wondered what became of me after we broke up). Choir when friends would smirk and hint and tell me you had a good expression while singing because you must have been thinking about someone special. That one time after school when I had kissed you on the cheek for the first time and you kissed my forehead in return and soon after, James was talking to us about something but then we admitted that we didn’t hear a word James had said. As time passes by I probably remember less and less, but I easily remember how much I had loved you back then. I can easily remember the desperation I had the days following our end. Perhaps in fifteen years even more will deteriorate, in fact that is inevitable, but I believe I will still remember how much I had loved you and how bad I had felt having lost us.

I remember that day in an AP review session on a weekend, you said, “Wow, Tiffany’s wearing shorts.” And that’s when I subconsciously knew I lost you, deep down. I could have been wrong, but it happened anyway, didn’t it? Either I had excellent foreseeability, or it is just pure, sad irony that it happened anyway.

I remember talking to Jazmin one time and she told me you said you won’t get over me for a long time, probably years. That’s lolicious because I’m pretty sure you got over me fast. Once I was flipping through a friend’s MySpace pictures, and I can still remember you commenting on how hot this (not even hot) girl was. It was like a stab to the heart. Years to get over me? What a load of crap. Do you know how hard it was to be lab partners with (my friend and) your near-future girlfriend and see you two across the lab table flirting two feet away from my face? Probably not, and you probably didn’t care, either. Heartless.

Well, it’s all the past. But of course, who I am today is composed of past and present. Therefore, when you say it’s “all in the past” it really isn’t. It’s still here, being carried into the present to make my memories and make me who I am. When someone tells you to “move on,” you know you will move on. You will keep walking, keep moving, keep breathing, keep living, keep finding new happiness and new sadness, keep having new experiences, but memories will always continue to stay dormant in your mind.